my favourite camera.

This is that camera (and me).

This is that camera (and me).

When I was 10 or 11 years old I got my first “real” camera - a Canon PowerShot SD1000. My mom matched every dollar I had saved up and we bought it from what I remember to be a really sketchy refurbished electronics + more store… my younger brother got one too.

We brought them everywhere and they had fallen victim to way too many pre-pubescent Tumblr-style mirror selfies, stop-motion videos of action figures wrestling, and photo scavenger hunts.

I found the camera in storage a couple months ago and couldn’t help but experiment with it. I’ve fallen in love with it again and use it now again all of the time. This has been the camera I’ve shot all of my experimental short films on, as well as my “VF” (viewfinder) series in my highlights on Instagram.

I love the nostalgic aesthetic of the mid 2000s digital grain and the simplicity of only being able to choose the ISO, JPG size, and white balance. In the age of photography where cameras come with manuals as big as textbooks and endless features and functions, it’s great being able to simplify the process, focus on the creative journey, and let go of the technical mumbo jumbo that we’re usually consumed with.

pull your frkn socks up.

Thumb print self-portrait, Dec 2018.

Thumb print self-portrait, Dec 2018.

Growing up I was always the kid doing arts and crafts. I'd stay in my room for hours on end making characters out of my thumb prints (see photo), or monopoly-style board games named after my pets (Furball's Fur was my best work). Creating things had no limits and I didn’t care if something looked horrible because I’d just make something else right after. Fast-forward to now - 21 years old and there's still not a day that goes by where I'm not covering many pages of my journal in scribbles, paint, or glue, although I’ve somehow over the years learned how to take things too seriously.

For the last 3 or so years I've dedicated myself to learning the craft of photography and what it takes to work in the commercial industry, but here I am feeling as though that’s not enough and not the extent of what I want to do! Telling stories has always been my biggest passion and I'm ready to start creating more immersive works to do so.

Time to stop talking about getting my hands involved in creating tangible sculptures and installations - it’s time to just start doing it already! Time to allow myself to play around with creating things and have fun building again. I mean, why was I so afraid when there’s nothing to be afraid of? The words of my very wise grade 6 teacher is a good note to end on I think… “PULL YOUR FRKN SOCKS UP!